I am so constantly amazed how easily I forget things I know.  I don't mean who the 16th president is, I mean things I know in my heart.  Actually, it's not that I forget, it's that I lose touch with my inner being.  I get so caught up in "life",  making ends meet, taking care of my kids, trying to become a good partner, being a good friend and so focused on where I want to be or think I should be.....that I live in those egos rather than in my light.  Oh and is it any wonder that the anxiety sets in as the fear takes over and suddenly nothing I do seems right.  Then you start thinking, ok, so I can't control things, so why even bother with any action?
Well of course that means I need to stop and listen, because the inner voice has an answer and it can tell you the direction to go.  The trick is ignoring all those other voices of all those other egos.  And listening


Yeah, I got stood up on a date...again....yeah, I've yet to meet a guy who is able to see me.  Yeah, my business isn't catching on, yeah, I struggle with my job and feeling valued. Hell I struggle with feeling valued in my relationships too.  BUT....I have to remember: those are other people falling down. NOT me.  I'm still me, I'm still doing what I think is right. I still do my absolute best to value the people in my life, because that is right for me.

Wow!!! I found this posted from Art Dreamers on Facebook, unfortunately the artist is unknown.  I was dumbfounded by how succinctly it describes one of my constant struggles.  Sadly, it doesn't solve the aloneness, but I have hope that there are others.

I suddenly had a thought today: I want a partner who is a reflection of me. A reflection of what I see as a loving giving person.  So what does it mean when I find the opposite?    Does it mean anything? 

What I need from you, respect. Respect that sometimes, I don't want to talk to you. Sometimes I get to take care of me and I need you to trust that I will get back you. After all, we are in relationship, I value that and I would expect you to do the same.  I need you to allow me to have my opinions, even when they differ from yours.  And I offer the same allowance to you.  I need you to allow me to have my feelings and share them with you in a healthy way.  I need you to respect yourself and in doing so, offer me the same respect. We deserve it

Have you ever noticed that when you are struggling with something, somehow, the answer just appears.  A couple of days ago my post was on emptying our hands, then today I found this quote:“As I look back on my life, I realize that every time I thought I was being rejected from something good, I was actually being redirected to something better.” ~ Steve Maraboli

and this image to go along: