And vice versa. Sometimes you don't realize you are resisting, but if you aren't allowing, you are resisting. Funny how one feels very active and the other not.
I am constantly needing to remind myself (be mindful), that I am here to experience. And that means in every way, the "good" and the "bad". This is particularly hard with people when you have an expectation of how they should interact with you, and when that doesn't happen feeling very disappointed and then sent into a tailspin of thinking you can do something to get them to do what you thought they should. Can you tell them what you expect? Sure. It doesn't guarantee an outcome though. Indeed, I would submit that you might be tampering with their experience in the world.
It's an amazing paradox to me. How if can feel at once so free to be in the place of allowing, and just experiencing what comes; and feeling so powerless as to be utterly terrified at the same time. I am learning it really takes time to let go of that need to control and to really be in a place of....well, allowing. Even when you have come to that spot, staying there is hard. And I have to allow that too.
I am constantly needing to remind myself (be mindful), that I am here to experience. And that means in every way, the "good" and the "bad". This is particularly hard with people when you have an expectation of how they should interact with you, and when that doesn't happen feeling very disappointed and then sent into a tailspin of thinking you can do something to get them to do what you thought they should. Can you tell them what you expect? Sure. It doesn't guarantee an outcome though. Indeed, I would submit that you might be tampering with their experience in the world.
It's an amazing paradox to me. How if can feel at once so free to be in the place of allowing, and just experiencing what comes; and feeling so powerless as to be utterly terrified at the same time. I am learning it really takes time to let go of that need to control and to really be in a place of....well, allowing. Even when you have come to that spot, staying there is hard. And I have to allow that too.
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