Cycles

He keeps showing up for me.  Not literally, he's been gone a long time, indeed if he ever was really present.  He shows in up in little nuances, a glimpsed image that brings back those feelings,  a face that reminds me of him, the music I was enjoying during that "glow".  Those anxious fears surface. I try to hold them at bay and instead become curious.  Why am I going through this again, what little thing is there for me to learn this time?
I'm reminded of how I judged myself against his "beliefs" and gently bring myself back to the knowledge that I don't need to do that to myself any longer.
Am I being reminded that deep inside I "know"?......my truth is there, in that stillness.....that I am exactly as I should be.