So this is a constant theme in my struggles and probably almost everyone's....feeling the need to control, when the need is actually to let go, to surrender. Not surrender yourself, but to surrender expectations. This one has been revolving in my brain for weeks. I understood that being completely in the present moment was necessary to achieve and kind of peace, but I got SO hung up on "but if I do that, how can I possibly be moving forward?" If I let go of an expectation, and indeed expect nothing, isn't that exactly what I will get?
So I researched, and I finally came upon a passage that resonated with me and made sense:
"Once I release the attachment and focus on being grateful for what I have in the moment, my life seems to shift, and progress seems to happen naturally" -Henri Junttila at Tiny Buddha.
Of course there are many ways of putting this I realized....you get what you need, not what you want.....
abundance is already here, you just have to change your perspective....
But....for now, this works for me.
I am dead certain I will end up here again, when life sweeps me into its turbulence, or when I get attached to something, or someone, that feels so good. My hope is that then I will realize those things happen as not derailing, but as reinforcement (which is exactly what Henri was saying the article I just realized)
AND, it will be.......well, yeah..... BE.
(and I'm happy to say I just realized what the final painting needs to be in the series of me!! :)
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