waking up

you know why I think it sucks so much to lose someone you love from your life?  I mean, does it make sense that we are so sad about losing someone who obviously didn't care enough to be in your life.  I think it has far less to do with them as it does with us. I think the part you loved was your reflection, or what you love about yourself that you saw in that person, your idealized view of them.  So losing them from your life is like losing a part of you that you love.  I like to think it was about losing that opportunity to give love, but this feels more likely, especially since I am not that awake, yet......