Once again, finding myself needing to work through something that showed back up. I'm really amazed at how many times you have to let something go....and I don't mean just like the original time it showed up, then years later when the same situation presents itself. I mean literally minutes, or even seconds later....my ego has grasped onto it again.
Yup!! Now would be the time to take advantage of using art journaling to become present....now....to convince myself I have time for it. Of course I do, I mean, that's something you can do in even just 30 minutes. And what's more, it's an investement in myself. Which opens up another struggle, why I procrastinate taking care of myself. It feels like a drag, when I just want to NOT do anything....it feels like work to get out the supplies and decide what to work on.....sudden overwhelm. But then I'm filling my time with empty calories like mindlessly watching tv. Hmmmm.....mindlessly....yeah, I think more than likely it's avoiding feeling those feelings. Or the fear that it won't work? Or I'll do it wrong.....all silly, but there it is.
So.....reminding myself: You are here to experience, ALL of it. It doesn't mean you will enjoy all of it. And you can't get it perfect. Even if there was such a thing, getting it perfect doesn't mean it will all feel good......but it will mean you are living.
Breath, step back, remember to be patient with myself, remember that while I have to allow others, more importantly: I have allow myself. And love myself while I do.
makes my mantra more applicable yet again......ha! think someone is telling me something?
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